The work you started.

I find myself trying reconcile my own sin.  I focus in on myself and that sin and I work really, really hard on bettering myself.  If somehow I could sin one less time I could sleep better or I would then be worthy.  I write lines and lines of words to make sense of my sin and God with very few words paid the debt of my sin. I try to use my broken arms and legs to keep the countless promises I have made to you.  All of those promises broken.  Yet you pull away my self made casts and remind me of your steadfast love.  I try to sing at the top of my lungs, until my voice surrenders and all I am making is a pitiful noise.  You then, in the stillness, take your mercy and you sing this weary soul to sleep.  When I try to build my empire out of gold and silver.  You take those ashes and ruins and you build a city on hill.  A bright and shining light for your glory.  I flood myself until I drown, flailing around naked and lost.  And you pulled me to the shore and clothed me in your righteousness.  Oh, I would spend the rest of my life working out of my own strength to make myself worthy.  I would grow tired and weak and bitter.  But the work has already been done and it was done perfectly.  When I try to rest in these holes I have dug for myself you pull me out of my filth with your loving kindness.  I can rest in your perfect love, perfect forgiveness, perfect grace.  My recovery from sin cannot spring from anything inside of me but from the perfect hope that is Jesus Christ.

Maiden Voyage

This is my first blog. Ever.  And as I write it I have no idea what it will look like.  I know I don't want it to be about things I did today or what my favorite ice cream is.  I want to try and challenge myself to share my perspectives on a genuine walk with Jesus Christ. I am not saying that I will always be right or that you should take my advice or anything of the sort. Instead if you find yourself reading this blog and agree or disagree with anything that is said then I encourage you to think on those things and form your own opinions.  And after that, search the text and your heart and find the truth that comes with reading the bible.  I encourage you to dive deep into your heart and wrestle with your desires, truths, will and comforts.  And pray that God would reveal to us his desires, truths, will, and his ways.  I have one desire above all else, just as Jesus was perfectly submitted to God I want to strive for the same thing every single day.  I realize I can't do it through my own power and that most of the time I try to work so hard to conform him to my will and it just ends up being a gigantic mess.  But that is the endless beauty of an honest relationship.  I try and fail over and over.  And when I can't work anymore God rebuilds my broken, failing heart with His perfect and steadfast love.  I can take comfort because I know not only is God the author of my salvation but he is the perfecter of my faith.  And he will continue to perfect me until the day that I die and I can't thank him enough.  With all that being said I suppose that is what this blog will be about.